Headaches. Headaches. And more headaches. My stomach was in terrible pain earlier on and I felt like fainting. No one to turn to, no one at home at that point of time. I suffer alone. All alone. Feels like going to the hospital and get warded. Talking about hospital, went to two hospitals yesterday. First was Changi General Hospital to visit Fir Vintage. Yeah, he was hospitalised due to bike accident. Second was KK Hospital, Yani was sick. Discovered that she had ear infection.

Currently at Ira's place since my uncle's place has no internet. Ira's sleeping like a pig. I guess I'll be going home on the last bus. And please, I need cigarette for now. No money to buy, that is. Waiting for my uncle to transfer me the cash. Stomach's grumbling and I need food. Ha ha.

Been doing much thinking lately. Thinking of things and stuffs. On how they occur when they shouldn't and why. I really need a job so I won't think too much and make myself stress. And there's also something that is bothering me. Someone to be specific. That particular someone really irritates me. I don't want to mention any names. So let's put that someone as a He, named Maria. That someone is a she-male ok. It's only imagining. Here goes.
I know Maria hates me due to some reasons. Well, maybe is that he's jealous of something. The funny thing is that, we talk like there's no hatred in Maria. The point is that, I don't like people to be hypocrite. It's like being a two-faced bastard. If you don't like me, jolly well say it infront of my face. Don't come to me and talk to me like there's no hatred in you. The only main reason Maria hates me is that he don't know me well. Only met once. So what's the point hating? Bodoh macam biskot ah kau!




Love starts with a laughter.
Love ends with tears.


Have you ever lose someone's trust? I used to lose someone's trust long time ago and now someone lose my trust. After all those heartaches and heartbreaks, it's really hard to gain back that trust. I know I'm such an idiot for believing. I know I shouldn't believe him from the start. But my heart stops me from hating him. I accept him for who he is. He smokes, he drinks and unmentionables. His childishness, retarded him. Loving him for the real him. Loads of patience I've put in the relationship. But end up full of bullshits. Now, back to square one. You and I, nothing. Full stop.
It's been long since we together got stone-d. Someday, we will finish the whole bag in just one day. Nah, two days. I guess. But next time it'll be he's turn to buy. I retire. Haha.

Mum's back and being the good daughter, fetched at the airport. Waited for an hour for her arrival. Bah. Mum bought me two buttoned long sleeve top. That's it. Yes. That's it. And yeah, my spongebob that I hang to my handphone no more. The maid and the retard is back and my house is clean. Smiles. No, wide smile. Suppose to clean up my room but instead of that, here am I busy blogging and changing my layout. My room was since yesterday. Reason: I keep on having my own sweet time cleaning. I ran out of strength yesterday due to lack of sleep. Planning to go cycling at Bedok with the girls. Hopefully it runs smoothly.

Sani and Ice said I've been silent after my chalet. Am I? No, I don't. Haha. Main reason I'm blogging is actually because Ice wants me to rant about him. Ok here goes. It all started when I didn't contact them for a week. Reason: I have my own reason. And Ice msn-ing with, saying that he has not seen me and not hearing my melodic voice for quite some time. After msn-ing, he called me up just to disturb me and yeah, we hung up. Haha. End of story.


It's a matter of time. Time will heal everything. Only memories will stay and pictures will slowly fade. All depends on you and what my heart shall say.

Times are hard nowadays. Schooless, jobless, moneyless. Been sleeping the whole day yesterday. I didn't even bother to answer anyone's calls. Nothing else matters when I'm sleeping. And hell yeah, like finally I cut my fringe. But it looks suckish, I cut too short. Nevermind, it will grow.

Mum's coming home soon and my house is in a mess. Not to mention my room. Got a whole list to do. From kitchen to living room to the bedrooms. Luckily I've cleaned the toilet. I wish I have a maid to do all those chores.








Yeah, spread the word. HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY to me. Like finally I'm 18. Just a small celebration though. On the night before my birthday, Ira and I met Sky at the Admiralty MRT station. First time aku nampak budak tu naik train. It was raining cats and dogs so we just chilled at Mac Cafe. Went to Orchard Towers as Sky wanted to take back his bike. Waited for Sani and Ice, and we proceed to Pasir Ris.


Ok thanks, I was sabo-ed there. Thanks to Sani for bringing that stuffs. Can't remember the ingredients. Only remembered there's coffee, ajinomoto, salt, sugar, Fab and I don't know la. All I know, I was wet and smell soo smelly. Eggs on my head. Thanks eh korang.

Mandi laut with the gundus, twice. HAHA. Damn, I'm dark. Shieks!


It was sad though that I couldn't celebrate my birthday with my hunny dedek. Yeah, he was busy spending his time with I don't know. I've not met him for I don't know how many weeks and yet he's not spending time with me. And hell yeah, he's not the first one to wish me. He didn't even call me. Thanks eh! These few days, our relationship is getting further. He didn't ask how am I or have I eaten. He'll only message me when I messaged him and didn't even call me unless if I asked him to do so. I was on the verge of crying, on my birthday. I tried to stop myself thinking of him. Why should I think of him when he didn't even bother to care about me. He's not the Faizal that I used to know. The more I refrain myself from thinking of him, the more he appears in my mind. I guess I should stop hurting myself. Life is unpredictable anyway.