I swear I'm tired. Not enough rest, the whole body is aching. Been going out every now and then when I have to sit at home, study for my O Levels. Well, goodluck in failing. I know I'm going to fail in all my papers. Thanks to me, I make a fool of myself. Ouh ya, finally I slept on my own bed. Been going out all night for five days straight. I feel good on own bed.

Random No. 1
I didn't know that Yunus laptop could read my handphone. I tried the other time but it didn't read. And I was hoping that it really reads so that I could move some pictures into the laptop so I have more memory space to take more upcoming pictures. And voila! It really works.

Random No. 2
Auntie Cha is irritating, very. She sms-ed me, saying that I should find a job and stop asking my mother money. And she keep on saying that no Asian guys will marry a non-virgin girls. And she says that guys will pass me around to their friends and said that I'm liberal. Like WHATTHEHELL is she thinking? But I still love her no matter what.

Random No. 3
Was looking through the pictures that I just received from Zaqri, the Raya pictures. And I find the below picture is very interesting:

Ouh I soo miss my hunny kibawa, very very very. I've not met him since the day before Raya. The last time was that we went to Geylang with Auntie Kelly, Fatin and Mirul. That was two days before Raya, it was soo long ago. Two weeks of not meeting him, no one to curdle me like a baby. And no one for me to curdle like a baby. Hugless nights, unkissable days.






Sorry for not updating, busy with people around me. Yeah, people around me. Family and friends, but more to friends nowadays. Reason, simple. My house is only filled with 3 people; Abang, Yunus and myself. What can I do at home? Nothing. No game to play, television nothing nice to watch, no SCV. Internet is boring sometimes. Conclusion, friends. Of those many circle of friends I have, Desafiar and the Yishun peeps are the best. Not to mention my two besties, Ira and Linda. They are the bestest among all. Yishun peeps are like brothers to me, whereas Desafiar are like my close big brothers. It's not because of their bikes and such. I don't care if they have a bike or not. Just that the way they treat us, the way they think and live their lifes.

It's been a few months since I met those Yishun peeps. Kind of miss them, very. Used to sit at the void deck and talk craps. At times going to KTV and went over to Abang Min's place. I didn't expect that we'd become this close. Never get bored sitting the whole day with them. But that couldn't compare to those memorable times with Desafiar. Eventhough it's only a year we've known each other, many good things happened in my life. The bonds we made are uncomparable to the bonds I made with the other circle of friends. I just love the way Sani is, happy-go-lucky. Never fail to make me laugh, never ever. Sky is forever disturbing people, especially Ira. There's more to come, just lazy to mention.









Second day raya over. Tired and worn out. Body aching, kaki penat. This year's hari raya totally sucks, mum's away. So no choice have to celebrate with aunts, uncles and cousins. Not forgetting brother la kan. Yeah, no nyai. So really don't know which house to go to first. Went to my dad's side first since Abang insisted on jalan-ing raya with my uncle. Camwhoring, eating, laughing and chit-chating. It was totally enjoying. And not forgetting Abang interviewing aunts, uncles and cousins.


But it comes to a different scenario when we were about to leave my aunt's place at Jalan Wangi. Sadistic moments. I swear my tears almost rolled down too, but I managed to control. I was sad too la obviously. Everyone was silent, listening. Kids stopped playing, adults stopped talking. It was really a sad moment on the first day of raya.

Will update soon aites. Need to have a good rest, tomorrow going out again.




I've been cleaning the kitchen over and over again. When will I fold my clothes, I don't know. Anutie Cha coming back next Tuesday and my house is yet to be cleaned. O Levels are nearing and I've yet to study. Not even a single subject I've touched on. Current mood: TIRED AND LAZY.

Yesterday, FULL HOUSE. A total of 9 people in my house and adding one more early in the morning. Cooked, washed and such. Feels like I'm married and having my own house. Lucky for me, no children to take care of. If not, pengsan.

Talking about marriage, relationship comes into my mind. When in a relationship, problems always occurs. I feel lucky, I don't know why eventhough I used to have boyfriends who don't satisfy my needs. Ira is on the boat as me, Linda is damn lucky. I've been waiting for my prince charming. Who will that be? A: Faizal B: Faizal C: Faizal D: Faizal. Ok he's the only one in my mind right now. I've no feelings for any other guy, yet. I can't say that Cicak is my last love. I used to say that when I just broke up with my previous ex boyfriend last year and I found my current love.

I think I need to clean my house fast before that tigress come and study before I fail again.







It feels like the end of the world, without those three words. Without knowing the meaning of living in this world, I challenge myself going through the obstacles of life. Problems troubling me, one after another. It is always about two things, family and boyfriend.

It's been a month plus since we broke up. The strange, weird feeling is still lingering in me. So strong that made me can't fight it. I tried, I failed. The love is over-powering me. Should I be sorry?



Chayayas and besties are the only bunch of people who supports me, the reason why I'm still breathing. They are the ones whom I rely on every minute, the ones who always cherish my days without fail. How can I not love them?