Sitting at home, infront of the computer all day long till my brother gets home is bored. Last night, went to meet my hunny to realese my stress at home. One problem after another. At least I got someone to talk to in the night.

~ Thanks hunny.



I've got the pictures of Nur Adlina, Kak Zuhrah's baby daughter. Cousins, email me if you want the pictures. Especially Nurul.




I shed my tears for the first time in 2007 because of a guy. Not in the mood to explain, and there's nothing to explain though. Yeah, knowing the truth hurts., the things you did these past few months. Shut up. I don't want to listen anymore.

It's really head scratching to know that someone hates you, without any reasons and when you did nothing wrong to them. Screw-loose I guess, insane. The worst thing is that the someone is a guy, guy with NO balls to be exact. And when we meet, they don't seem to have any grudges on me, pretending I guess. No use of pretending, show your true self is the best. What's wrong if you just say it straight that you hate me, and give me the reasons why should you.

My supeR dupEr cUte cuTe cutE cousin, Mr Hafiz, asked my dear darling lesbian partner, Ira, out. Hmmmph! yakdish~ His own cousin taknak ajak and he no longer message me eversince he got a new friend. Hahaha.

It's a tiring day for me today town-ing.




He lied to you, eversince the beginning. She's still in his life, lingering in his heart. He shouldn't lie to you in the first place if he really love and care for you. It's like he's playing with your fragile heart. The truth hurts, but not as much as his lies. Every story that he makes is a mistake. What's his intention by doing so? What is he trying to hide from you? Do you think he lied the other party too? I bet he do. If he can lie to you, why not her?


Like Ili said, "Sape yang makan tomato, die yang rase masam."
(sape yang makan chilli, die yang rase pedas.)

Just woke up from my beauty sleep. Nurul still at my house, just woke up too. Mum's working morning shift, coming back soon. I'm damn hungry, always hungry. I eat alot, but didn't grow fat. I want to gain some weight, but it doesn't work.

I still remember the first time I get to know Faizal. He's in sec 2 and I'm in sec 1. He's in the TAF Club. He's so cute and bulat and comel. But when school reopens while he's in sec 3, he really lose weight. That's why he's so sexy now. Haha. No wonder girls are after him, eg: KamaLia, the pretty girl in Bedok South. I admit that she's pRetty, real pretty. And her sweet voice. Enough said of the past.

Friday, I have a plan. Going to Chai Chee to take my baby girl away, bring her go jalan-jalan. I miss my baby girl. Last week on Wednesday, I brought her down to Chai Chee. She called Sufran 'hitam' and she called Mr Cute/Sexy 'Ajai'.

I wanna take a shower and eat, then wait for my mummy to get home to ask for money. Going out to meet Mr Cute/Sexy.




Hunny starts schooling last Monday. Padan muke ko kene bangon pagi-pagi! I no longer in that kind of stage. Apek's guitar is with me now, took it from that Cicak. I don't know how to play, but just take it for the sake of fun. Don't be surprised if I know how to play out of the sudden.

I know he messaged her. Don't have to know how I know. I have lots of spies (mcm faham). I'm still in the confused mood. *conpiused* I'm not sure of which to choose from.

Nurul and Yunus slept over at my house. Nothing better to do, no house I think. Haha. Not going out today. Bored to death now. Mak aku jap lagi alek. Ouh ya, Ira made friends with my cute cute cute cousin. Can't deny the fact that he's cute, super duper cute. Jangan jealous eh cousins-cousins ku yang lain. Especially Alya, ko tak cute ok! haha. Did I ever mention that I've ride on Hafiz's bike? Yeah, the other day I miss my last bus home. So he sanggup take me from Bedok sent me back to Woodlands. Lucky thing is that, I know the way back. If not, sesat! Mampos! I've yet to ride on Sharifee's new bike.

Rafidah thinks that her brother brought home another girl. But when she heard my voice in the living room, she was shocked. Not expecting it was me. She wants me and her brother to pAtch back, she miss the old us. I miss the family. Uuuuhhh!

I want you to know that, I miss you.




We'll meet up soon babes! Take a ride on Ili's car. Weeee~ hahaha.


Finally, the tagging ends. I feel like slapping their motherfucking faces (those who has no guts revealing their names). And the funny thing is that, someone says my dear darling is like a minah rempit who's trying hard to be a rocker. I was laughing my ass off la reading that tag. It was super hilarious, really. Ira, a minah rempit? Trying hard to be a rocker? Haha. I bet that person don't even know who we are. Enough said about them.

Rain pouring again yesterday. Went to Bugis with Nul to meet up Mr Cute. Then went to City Hall to meet up my dear darling. The boys were late! They went jamming at 4-tone. After all that, all of us went to Admiralty to slack. Nothing much, only that finally my Marlboro Menthol Light finished. It taste sucks. Luckily my last stick I able to exchange it with Aimi, Perillys.

Kak Zuhrah's here. With her baby! Hunny, I pon nak baby!!!!!



They have nothing better to do, flooding my tagboard. And they have no guts to even reveal their names. Go to hell with them. I don't give-a-damn. I don't get it, why do they have to tag me since I've got nothing to do with them. If Aminah was unhappy with me, she could tag me herself. Or better still (if she has the guts), she could confront me on that day itself.

I talked to your boyfriend, so? I tickled your boyfriend, so? Your boyfriend protected me, so? He pulled me up when I fell in the centre of the moshpit, so? Your boyfriend hugged me, so? Your boyfriend kissed me, so? What you gonna do to that? Smack me in the ass? I like that. =)

Your boyfriend is all yours. I don't care either. Can't you read my previous post carefully? I didn't force your boyfriend. I just came to the gig to see my friends performing. I wasn't hoping to see my long-time-didn't-meet-friends. And mind you, your boyfriend and I had promised each other that we'll still be friends and keep in contact.
So just fuck off.

I love my dear darling so much. She's always by my side to console me, to make me happy. Not forgetting my hunny-kibawa. I love being with him. 28th February that big head Sahrin is performing for Autum By Mistake. I'm coming, hell yeah.

Motherfucking taggers, click here. My dear darling has something to say to you motherfuckers out there.



Last Sunday's gig was a blast. Went with my dear bitch, Ira Darl and met Ham at Bugis. After years of not moshing, finally I got to mosh! It's been three years since I last moshed due to some reasons. Can't elaborate everything here. For what I know is, someone cried because of jealousy.

It wasn't my fault, I swear to god. I was jealous too seeing both of you together. My tears almost roll down my cheeks, but I just control myself. Luckily there's Ira to help me built my courage. Like I said, it wasn't my fault that made you cry, little girl. He's the one who keeps on standing behind me and trying to protect me. He always do that in the past and I didn't expect he'll still protect me. I didn't force him or trying to steal him away from you. Don't be such an EMO-SHIT, crying over some stupid pathetic jealousy. I know him much more better than you do, inside out. I bet you only get to know him recently, at most is five months. But I know him for four years. So get a life. It's not that I want to criticize you or hate you. It's just that don't get jealous or angry or jump into conclusions easily. Think positively, be optimistic.

Lately, I'm in the confusion state of mind. I can't even decide on my choice. I'm giving up on myself. I'm such a jerk, can't even take care of guys' feelings. Sorry if I ever hurt your feelings. If you really love me, you should able to accept my kind of life. My rough attitude, my social life, my screwed life, my likes and dislikes.




My stomach is like a pig now. Just finish eating Nasi Lemak, mum cooks. I was very hungry then. Hunny didn't cook for me today. He played his Final Fantasy X-2 on his PS2 the whole day. I rearranged his wardrobe. I can't stand it, it's such a mess. You know I hate seeing that sight. Just hoping it remains the way I arranged it till next week.

Akmal thinks that I have a boyfriend! OMG, I've been single since I broke up with my recent ex, Faizal, last August. So it's already 5 months of no boyfriend, no control-king, no can't-do-whatever. I love being single. So, who wants to be my boyfriend? Just fill up the registration form aites and wait for the interview.
*Terms and conditions apply.

• no hot-tempered guys
• no over controlling
• love me for who I am
• patient
• no secretive types
• know how to take care of my feelings
• could get along with my family and cousins
• could get along with my friends, true friends
• doesn't give-a-damn who I mixed with

That's about it. If you really think that you're good enough, then you can apply. On second thought, I've found the guy. But, who cares. I just want to waste your fucking time to apply. Hehe. I know, I'm mean. Bear with it.




These past two days been going out with my cousins. Tuesday went to IMM with Yunus/U-nose/Yun. Met him at Admiralty MRT station and asked him to accompany me back home to ask mum for money. Supposed to meet Nurul/Nul/NSR at Jurong but she says that she wants to go home after accompanying her friend. So just the two of us walking around IMM. We window shopped as usual. I was attracted to a bedroom set, with a super nice bed, super nice closet and make-up table. There's a stove that cost $400+ at one of the stores there. It really attracts me. Gonna buy if I'm married. That stove will be a present for Hunny, he knows how to cook.

Went to Causeway point after that as it's still early. Walked to Cicak's house cause Yun wants to take the CicakMan VCD. Yun went home and I went to Koufu to eat with Caca.

Rapunzel, Rapunzel. Let down your hair.

Cicak, Cicak. Let down your CicakMan.
(I asked him to pass me the VCD through the window.)

Yesterday, Ira came over. Met Nul at Admiralty MRT station and off we go to Ang Mo Kio, where we meet Yun. Town-ing for awhile before Yun went to work. Ira bought a top from Kedai Atas (Topshop). I chose for her, grey. Met Mus and Sufrin at Bugis after their jamming session. Walked to Esplanade to slack. All the way, I carried Sufrin's guitar. I swear I was sweating like mad.

I didn't go out for today, except for accompanying my dearest hunny-kibawa, Cicak, to cut his oh-so-lovely hair. It's SHORT. I prefer his old hair to his current one. He's starting school next week. Wish him all the best for his O's.

I miss his family. His dad and his cookings. His mum and her nags. His sisters and their playful acts. His brother and his curly hair. And obviously, him.

Hunny, don't be jealous. I miss you everyday, eventhough we meet up almost everyday. And I love you, just like I love rock and roll.




Just changed my layout. I love it simple and I hate navigations, don't ask why. At least I made an effort to look for layouts at blogskins.com even though I'm super lazy to do so.

Nights were spent at hunny's place recently. Watched SAW 3 yesterday night. It was uber gory. But the sad thing is, the storyline was quite slow. Hunny's bantal busuk is with me, almost a week. I love the smell of it.

Ira's mad at me because of I didn't accompany her shopping just now. It's not that I don't want to. It's just that I'm plain lazy and my ezlink now is ADULT fare! Furthermore, mum's not at home to ask for money. Sorry my dear darling. I didn't meant to make you mad.

Been super close to my cousins recently too. Especially Nurul and also Caca. Nurul is facing lots of problems recently. Especially with her parents and her sister who can't stop making up stories. Luckily only one of her siblings is like that. And furthermore, her current boyfriend sometimes made her mad. But don't worry NSR (Nurul Siti Radhiyah), we're here for you.

Again, I'm hungry as usual. And always going out at night with the accompany of either Caca or NSR. I just love being with my chayayas. You might be wondering what does the 'chayaya' word means. It's just a word that my retarded uncle made up.

I'm just loving my chayaya cousins and I'm too deep in love with him. You should know who. If you don't, then that's too bad.




Good terms back with mum. She's been nagging at me for going out at night, sleeping over at my friend's place. She took away my key but gave it back with a $10 on top of it. I know she loves me. Hehe.

I miss my dearest friends. I miss my sweetie Firdaus. I miss my babe Sheena. I miss my primary school bestfriend Wani. I miss my dear BMC peeps Naddy and Nazurah. If I would to continue this, I swear this post will be just full of names.

Ira treat us Absolult Vodka last two days. There was my cousin, Nurul; my hunny-kibawa, Cicak; my sweetest darling, Ira; and Cicak's campmate, Dino. But Nurul didn't drink, she finished the 7up instead.

Watched Ghost Game. It was fun. Wished there's a game like that in Singapore.

Yesterday, Nul and I were being so sarcastic to a bunch of guys and girls. The guy was trying to make friends with us, but we are being so sarcastic that half of them eventually left the place. A guy wants Ira's number but ask one of the girls to ask from her. The girl was like so dumb, don't even know which guy wants the number. All I said to her is, "Kalau die(that guy) ade buah, suroh die mintak sendiri." And she left us and the guy didn't appear.

The irritating thing is that, the girls keep on looking at us while walking pass us. Damn irritating. I know one of the girls, it's Kina. Yes, the one that Caca and Nina had a grudge with. I don't give-a-damn if that bloody bitch Kina wanna cari pasal or whatsoever. Keep on looking at us like as if we're some scumptious meal or something.

I think to change my blogskin. I'm getting sick of it. But too lazy to do so. Cicak's bloggie is so EMILY. Hehe.

Hunny, can change for me my layout? Please. =)




Sorry for not updating my blog recently. It's just that I don't know what to blog about. So it's 2007! Do you guys have any resolutions? I don't have any. Ham's resolution is to be better. Better in what? Haha.

Yesterday was the new year and my first time in this year to be punk'd by Cicak. He's so mean, terribly mean! Nothing much to explain about that. The main point is that, he's god-damn good at acting. I really think it's for real. You idiot!

Nurul's been sleeping at my house for these two days. She ran away from her house because of her parents and Siti. Siti's totally out of her mind, saying that Nul memotek in the train. It's like totally no common sense. My cousins said that she should rather be dead. I totally agree with that. And one thing, mum scolded me as Nul's dad said he saw me and Nul together on the 30th night. I was like, WHATTHEFUCK! I was at Dover with my dear darling Ira and my dearie hunny-kibawa Cicak and his friends. Mum is totally out of her mind too for believing that I'm with Nurul. Screw them la.

I've started working at World of Sports. Yesterday was my first day at work. Tired and exhausted. Today, didn't go as I woke up late. I was in the morning shift and suppose to wake up at 8am. So, bleargh didn't go to work. Idiot me!

I miss my dearie dearie hunny-kibawa! And his BANTAL BUSUK!