I was fucking bored, nothing to do. So I just try if the memory card reader that Ira brought works with this comp. And voila!

dNd, 15 November 2006.














Explore at old mental hospital, 18 November 2006.





















Yesterday was indeed a tiring one. Met Ira at Mcd infront of my house and off to meet Cicak and slack around his blk. We were happily talking that we didnt realise it's getting late for us to catch the last bus to Bedok. So we ran to the bus stop and futher more it's raining. Luckily reached the interchange at 11.25pm and our last bus is in 5 minutes time. Went to Ira's house for awhile as she wants to put her bag and stuffs. After that off to Chai Chee to meet Sky. Slacked and his friends came. Went to OCH with Ira, Sky and Mo by car. Yes, just the four of us. When we reach there, it's already 4+am. It was damn scary, when there's noone else around, just the four of us. Unlike Abang, he went with Yunus, there's other groups as well. We went into all of the buildings there. We didnt get to see anything.

Went to Parkway to meet Ira, Ella and Aisah. Ira and Ella played pool while me and Aisah played the arcade. Aisah and I went to meet up with Adidah at Pebbles of Death, at Bedok South, to take something for Cicak's uncle. After that, slacked at Tamp Big Mac and proceed off to take the bus home. Met Cicak, my hunny-kibawa, before going home to pass him the thing. Ate his kuih tart again, so the sedap. Reached home, massage Ira and now she's sleeping already. I'm hungry like hell, no food to eat and mum didnt give me money yesterday. Hmmph!

Well, this Saturday going again. But dont know to where. So goodluck of exploring to us.


Do you know that I know the truth? How could you lie to me?


I finally regain my strength after the 'tripping'. It was a blast on Friday night. Went to City Hall to accompany Syamil to sell ciggarattes. Went to Yishun, slack for awhile. Realised that the time is getting late for me to go Pasir Ris. Abang called, saying that he didn't bring his key. So I have to take the cab home, he asked me to. Charged my handphone, talked to my dearie hunny-kibawa. Then, went to Teh Tarik Restaurant with Amin, Zul, Apai, Boy, Syamil and Ira by car. I've no space to seat at the back, so I just lie down on their legs. Haha. After makan, went to buy drinks and off to Amin's house at Sembawang. We have to play a game called '10'. Who has the lowest number have to lick a pinch of ajinomoto and drink the alcohol. It was fucking yuckish! I ended up tripping as I keep on drinking. Ira couldn't finish it, so I drink up for her. Apai had to drink, but I said I want half of it. Shieks!

I was making a hell of noise. They keep on asking me to shut up, saying that Tai's working the next day. So I went like this to whoever speaking,

"Shhhhh!!! Tai tdo...."

And I keep on saying that to them. I was talking to Cicak on the phone in the morning, of course I didn't realise it.

Cicak: U ptne?
Hadz: I pt sembawang.
Cicak: Ngan sape?
Hadz: Ngan Ira and kwn.
Cicak: Lelaki ke pompan?
Hadz: (Looking at Boy) Ko lelaki ke pompan?
Boy: (dont know what he's tallking bout, asking me to put down the phone)
Hadz: Huh? Ko bapok? Hahahahah.

K I know I sound so silly. Haha. I was tripping. It was my first time ever, you see. And futhermore before that, I tried obat batok. See, how can I not trip?

Hadz: (pointing at Syamil) Sape tu?
Syamil: Syamil la.
Hadz: Ouh. Yg ade tattoo tu eh?
Syamil: Ah!
Hadz: Aku blang Abang Min ko amek obat batok 2 botol.

Bocor rahsia! Haha. Syamil, I'm so so sorry. I didn't mean to, really.

Hadz: (pointing to dont know who) Nie sape?
Syamil: Syamil
Hadz: Taknak! Nak Cicak!!!!
Someone: Nie Cicak.
Hadz: tipu! Cicak ngah tdo pt uma.
Syamil: Lipas nak?
Hadz: taknak! Nak Cicak jugak!
Someone: Komodo dragon ade, lipas ade, bla bla bla bla.....

Hilarious. The whole thing was hilarious. Shhh!!! Tai tdo....




Was awaken by a message in the morning. It was Sky. He had an accident, while corner-ing into the carpark, nothing bang into him. He's ok, only with some bruises on his left hand and right leg. His motor's front tyre dented or something like that. Then wake my hunny-kibawa up to go to work and went back to sleep. Around 9.30am, met hunny-kibawa at the Admiralty MRT station to take the memory card reader he lend me. Now, don't know how to use the reader. The computer says the device is not recognised.

Yesterday, sat at home the whole day. Except for at night. Accompanied my hunny-kibawa to the doctor, just to get MC as he didnt go to work. Just for the god-damn MC, he has to pay $26. Of course there's medicine too, but he's not really sick. So what for taking that medicine. Slacked for awhile with him while waiting Ira to reach Woodlands. Had a great time spending with him yesterday night. Really missed spending time with him. =)

I've got the pictures of the outing on Saturday from Zaqri. But only get 7 of it. I messaged him saying that I wanted all, but still not yet receive the email.

Zul or whoever of his friends reading this, please tell Zaqri to send me all the pictures of the Saturday's outing. Yes, I mean ALL. Thank you. Zul, I want more of the exploring. Ok ok ok?

Here are some pictures of it. Will post it more when I get the rest aites.


At the traffic light. Can't see me as I was at the far right hand corner of the picture.


Ira and Zul on the go.


Apit, Me, Linda and Zaqri.


Sky and Hadz on the go.


I didn't know my face will be in too. Look at Sky. He always pose for cameras.


Will post more!


I miss you terribly.


Saturday night amazing. Met Linda and Nana at Bedok Interchange before heading to Ira's blk. Ira went up to charge the digicam. So me, Linda and Nana sat at the void deck. Few minutes later, Sky reached with his friend, Apit. Then Zul and don't know who came. So the eight of us met the rest of their friends at Bedok Reservoir nye kedai kopi. Around 2am, we went off heading to the old mental hospital. There were a total of 9 bikes and 15 people.

The building is totally rabak. With unclosed drains, rusty chains and stuffs. Wasn't spooky at all to me. Just snap some pictures and will post it as soon as I get it. It was a four storey building, with access to the rooftop as well. Was happily snapping some random pictures and suddenly Zul was pointing somewhere behind me. So I asked him what was it all about. He just ask me to look at the pictures I had taken. But unfortunately, there was nothing. Around 4am, we headed to Yishun Dam, where we slacked for ahile before going home. There, another two or three bikes joined us. So they were chaotic, doing some burnout and stuffs.

Went to VivoCity just now, early in the morning with my BMC peeps. Finally, I get to meet the kecohrables. Watched Final Call. It was damn scary. Just window shop-ed. And now I'm at home. Later meeting Cicak at his work place. Miss him you know.




Just got home from Esplanade. Well, last night was indeed a great night. Accompanied my dear darling Ira to her dNd. Met her at Parkway KFC first before that as we going with her friend who is working on that day. So the three of us cab-ed to Suntec Convection. Ira was dancing away and I just talked to Apek on the phone. See, I don't like to dance. Took some pictures for them. Will post it as soon as I get the pictures aites. Saw some familiar faces; Siti, my cousin; Nadiah, Lolok's ex. And and and saw Zul. Yes, Zul, Mizi's cousin! He asked us to join them; him and his friends, to slack at Esplanade. Honestly, his friends were friendly and easy to get along with. Cab-ed home to Ira's place. Slept till 5pm, was damn tired you see. Went to Esplanade and just slacked.

Tomorrow having my P.O.A paper one at 11.30am. All the best to me. Haha. No plans for tomorrow. Somebody please ask me out. =)


I know the truth hurts
But not as much as you lie
Why can't you be honest?
Is it so difficult to do so?
Lying is not the best remedy
Not for me, not for anyone.


Yesterday was indeed a tiring day for me even though I didn't do much. Lack of sleep explains that tiredness. I couldn't get myself to dream-land that night. After watching two VCDs, I finally could, around 7+am! But was awaken at 9+am by Apek as he wants to borrow my iPod. Continued my sleep and awaken again by Cicak this time. Asked him to come to my house to slack. Around 8+pm, went out to Parkway to fetch Ira after her work. Went to 888 Plaza to meet Apek and his friends there. Slacked there for awhile then walked home, the three of us. The rest bike-d home. Waited for Apek around Admiralty Place to fetch Cicak. And and and Apek and Tiara fell! I was so damn terkejut. Luckily nothing happen.


Had my P.O.A paper two just now. It was damn atrocious, seriously. Waited for Apek and Cicak to come after my paper as I have to pass Cicak his money. Went to Nurul's crib to take my house key from her. So I was at home the whole day after that.

Need to go now, off to dNd at Suntec.


Those were the days with you
I shall cherish those memories
And keep it tight in my heart
Thinking about it every now and then
Only a broken heart that I get







Apek has a girlfriend, Tiara Zulaiha Maisarah, his dearest new bike. Had my Mathematics Paper Two. It was so-god-damn atrocious. Apek fetched me again, this time with his Tiara. Waited for around 1 hour for him. Then I saw this mat with a yellow motor, wearing a purple top. And that's him. He wore the t-shirt that I bought for him as a birthday present. Went to Marsiling, meet up with Aki and went to Al-Ameen. Thinking of eating there, but end up tak jadi. So off to Tampines to meet up with his other friends. Ate at Safron and just came back home.

I miss my darling Ira. Tomorrow going to my cousin's open house at Bedok Reservoir. My uncle asked me Faizal and his friends to tag along. Mampos!


Time flies and days passed.
Without our own realisation,
Three months had gone.
I could never imagine this,
Being isolated and hopeless.


Had my pathetic English Language Paper One and Two, and the most fucking Physics Paper just now. Apek fetched me from school, first time ever. Haha. My legs were exhausted due to the walking with him this whole day. Ira at my house now, sleeping like a pig. She's so tired, working the whole day.

Yesterday, went shopping with Apek at Causeway point. Bought two tops from Esprit. Buy for Apek his birthday present, a t-shirt from 77th Street. He says he going shopping with me again when he get his pay, to buy me a present.

Tomorrow's plan, not sure. Study for my maths I guess. For now, I need to hang the clothes I just washed.


Stress is all over my head. Not totally cover my whole head. I'm still in the enjoy mood, but still aware that I'm having exams.

Had my Maths Paper 1 just now in the morning. I was late by 10 minutes. Thanks to myself for keep on snoozing the alarm clock for 15 minutes. Upon reaching, everyone had started their papers. It was quite atrocious, especially those questions at the back. At least I put all my effort onto that paper.

Thinking of continue-ing my sleep, Episode 2 for the day. But my eyes just couldn't shut. So got nothing better to do, I brought out Alya's hair straightener and straighten my hair. Haha. It looks like there's no difference on my hair as my hair is straight. Can't wait for my hair to grow. I just miss my Sec 2 hair, the longest hair length I've ever kept.

Take a look at my brother's deviantart. There's my picture over there and someone commented, saying I'm cute. Weee....

It's this picture and comments anyway.





You're such a pathetic fool. You made up stories, telling others that I'm the cause of your break up. You broke up with him way before, before we became close. Lucky for me, I've broke friendship with you. If not, you'd made up more stories about me. I've got nothing much to say, just three simple words to you.

GET A LIFE.
You fucking moron.

Just got home from Cicak's house. Slept over at his house for two consecutive days. Being sabo-ed by th three of them; Cicak, Ira and Apek. It all started by Apek. He sat on top of me and Cicak took out his steak sauce from the fridge. Not only steak sauce on my body. There's egg on my hair. Showered and ate the Canadian Pizza which Cicak ordered. Watched some VCDs and off to dream-land.

Thanks to the three of you, I enjoyed my whole night being sabo-ed. Haha. Hunny, thanks for the pizzas. Ira, thanks for always being there for me. Apek, thanks to you the sabo begins by you sitting on top of me while I was happily watching TV.

Thanks to the rest for wishing me. Love you all.


HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY TO ME.....


My heart was beating fast
I don't understand the feeling inside
It makes me kind of miss you
But you're like ignoring me
I cried hearing your voice
Tears rolled down my cheeks
Without any reasons.


I miss all of my BMC friends. Even though we only get to know each other for 8 months, the bonds we made are tight. The friendship will last till forever. I still remember the first day of school. We could get along with each other well. Time flies so fast that we didn't even realise it's the end of our school days.

BMC girls, let's have a reunion! I miss you all!!! Especially Naddy and Nazz!




Auntie Cha going back to Oman tonight. I'm so glad, no interruptions, no disturbance. But will miss her despite her naggings and stuffs. Don't know if I want to sent her to the airport.

I miss this cute little girl of mine. She has grown to a naughty girl, just like me. She's turning two end of this year. Yes, END of this year.




Ira went for her OBS camp. Shieks!