Swear I didn't understand a damn single thing in class just now, be it P.O.A or Maths. I've been skipping classes lately due to you-know-the-reason. And I've been sleeping late nowadays talking to someone on the phone.

Slacked at Mc Cafe / Big Mac with my darling Ira and Sheena. Sheena scold me for calling her 'Cine'. Haha. And my B, Linda came down too. I miss her so much. The last we met was last two weeks, exactly last two weeks. Asked Sharifee to come down too, thinking of have a ride on his bike. But too bad, he doesn't have any extra helmet. Shitto-man. And I got to know Auntie Cha gave him $1000 and $500 to Hafiz. I was like, WHAT THE FUCK?! I asked $10 from her and she just yak-yak-yak-yak.

Cicak, I want a song just like Ira's. I don't care. BLUEK! And I want it to be nicer and better than her's ok? LOVE YOU. Haha. You, tell me the reason you pedih2 the other day. PLEASE! I wanna know. Hadzah's such a kpo, you know. And moreover, you said that it got to do with me.
TELL ME QUICK!

Babes, just ignore what Cicak call me k. He's crazy, calling me names. He's CUTE. Haha. And I mean, REAL cute. C.U.T.E. Take that. Bluek!


I still love you and will always do. Sorry if I broke your heart, you broke mine too. Please move on with your life. You will always be my fishball.

Saturday is the day we met, after the broke up a week ago. Its really hard for me to meet him. And yes, he made me cry. He keep on pestering me to agree to his idea of sending me home. And he asked me to overnight with him at East Coast but I don't want to. I just can't. Yesterday supposed to watch movie with my darling but my mum gave me only $10. Then what I am suppose to eat. Haha. So I asked Ira to come over to my place. So asked Cicak if he wants to slack and Ira asked him to bring his friends. So only Apek tag along. Slacked at 888 Plaza. And and and I drink a sip of Baron. Haha. I don't know. Stressed I guess. Haha. Slept at my uncle's house and didn't go to school today, as usual. Haha. Ate at Mcd Princess and went to Tamp. Slacked at Mc Cafe and Nurul JR joined us later.

Cicak, I also want a song. It's not fair that you guys didn't compose a song for me, but to Ira.
BLUEK!

It's normal for my maternal side to be EMO! Just like Hamidah says. I just don't understand them. LOVE SUCKS. I know.


Sorry for melecehkan you guys all for that password thingy. It's just that I got to know someone told him bout my entries. I don't blame that someone. So those who know, just shut up.

The truth hurts, I know. I still love him and he loves me too. But I'm not ready to build our relationship back. You may say I'm egoistic. But if you were in my shoes, you'd feel the same. Trust me.

LOVE YOU ALL FOR SHUTTING UP!

I LOVE MY 'LIZARD'!

But 'LIZARD' loves Ili and Ira. MACAM FAHAM! haha.


I've changed my blog song again. The lyrics are damn nice, and of course the instruments too.

Seize The Day by Avenged Sevenfold.

Thanks to Bir to let me hear this song. I'm lovin it. Cicak now in love with I Set My Friends On Fire by Aiden. He's so damn funny. Keep on repeating the same song over and over again. I know everyone loves my favourites. Haha. And no, I'm going to change my layout. Simply because I'm damn lazy as it is so melecehkan.



Seize the day or die regretting the time you lost
It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to ache over

I see my vision burn, I feel my memories fade with time
But I'm too young to worry
These streets we travel on will undergo our same lost past

I found you here, now please just stay for awhile
I can move on with you around
I hand you my mortal life, but will it be forever?
I'd do anything for a smile, holding you 'til our time is done
We both know the day will come, but I don't want to leave you

I see my vision burn, I feel my memories fade with time
But I'm too young to wory a melody, a memory, or just one picture

Seize the day or die regretting the time you lost
It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to ache over

Newborn life replacing all of us, changing this fable we live in
No longer needed here so where do we go?
Will you take a journey tonight, follow me past the walls of death?
But girl, what if there is no eternal life?

I see my vision burn, I feel my memories fade with time
But I'm too young to wory a melody, a memory, or just one picture

Seize the day or die regretting the time you lost
It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to ache over

Trials in life, questions of us existing here, dont wanna die alone without you here
Please tell me what we have is real

So, what if I ever hold you, yeah, or kiss your lips again?
Woooaaah, so I never want to leave you and the memories of us to see
I beg don't leave me

Seize the day or die regretting the time you lost
It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to ache over

Trials in life, questions of us existing here, dont wanna die alone without you here
Please tell me what we have is real

Silence you lost me, no chance for one more day
I stand here alone
Falling away from you, no chance to get back home
I stand here alone
Falling away from you, no chance to get back home


It's been a week since we no longer together. And you may say that I no longer love you. It's totally NOT true. You're my first true love, and maybe the last. How could girls forget their first love, first kiss and stuffs. You may blame me on this, but I know we won't get back together again.

Yesterday was an irritating day for me. I had stomachache so I didn't go to school and called Nazurah up to meet me at the DBS Building toilet. And as usual, went to Mc Cafe or Big Mac. Whatever you guys want to call it. Met up with the rest and got to know that Ili and Naddy too didn't went to school. Fish was there too and we were so-could-get-along. This is the real me, friendly, no matter boy or girl. Nurul went for her prac, Nadd went off with her friends and, Ili and Fish went to don't know where. So left me and Nazz, waiting for Ira to come. Meet up with Cicak and Apek at Woodlands. Slacked and went to 888 Plaza. They drink beer! That is so yucks. I almost take a sip. A guy sakit adek and trying to manja-manja with Ira. So Hadz to the rescue, asked Cicak to change place with her. Went home and went back down to Mcd.

And yes! I've pierced my tongue. WOOHOO!! Thanks Cicak for piercing for me. I love you. Zah, I know you told Faizal about my blog and stuffs. It's ok. I'm not blaming you. Let him realise his mistake and please ask him to move on.

I LOVE NAZURAH!


It's really hard for me to forget about you. You're the one that always be there for me. But everything changes now, for the better. But heck, we're bestfriends now. So, hope you could move on with your life and find a better girl.

It's like a routine for me nowadays to go to the Big Mac since I broke up recently. Everyday and always there. And it's always with the same person. I'm so in love with Naddy and Nazurah. Cicak always forget Nazz's name. haha. Since the day we broke up, I've never had the appetite to eat and feels like vomitting as my stomach's empty. Luckily for me, there's Nad, Nazz, Ili and Ira to cheer me up. And yes, today I got to eat the whole plate. *winks*

He told me that he sayang me. Is that true? And it's not even a week that we now each other. I'm so confused.


I still love you no matter how hard i try to forget about the past. And I do still need you. You called me last night, but I'm still not in the mood to talk. Sorry if you feel bad. I don't expect this to be the worst. But it's fated for us to be like this. Maybe someday we'll get back together again. But I know this will take a VERY long time for me to console myself.

Yesterday, I came to school late as i slept late, talking to someone on the phone. Hang-out with the kakis and nurul at Food Culture coz they wanna eat. I don't feel like eating so I just look at them. So after they finish eating, someone came by. Accompany someone go eat at KFC. But still I don't have the appetite. So yesterday was my very first time not eating anything. I drank Milo only before going to school and ate 2 slices of potato and 1 slice of pancake at night. I really don't know what's happeing to me. Met Zah and Hadi at the Tampines MRT station to pass them Faizal's money. So went home after that. Slacked with someone till 8pm. And went out again. I won't elaborate much on that. At least, I had a great time yesterday night, letting out my fruss and stress, thanks to Cic.

Zah, thanks for your concern and I do appreciate it so much. Naddy, I love you for making me have a great day everyday, without fail. Ili and Nazurah, I love u guys too. Cic, thanks for your point of view.

I LOVE YOU ALL.

Nazurah, please take it easy. We are not blaming you for this to happen. Please don't get stressed out ok dear.


Eventhough we are no longer together anymore, you will always be in my heart. And only you the one that I love. And nothing could change my love for you.

Slacked at big mac with the kakis; ili, nazurah and naddy. As usual, gossiping is a MUST. And of course commenting on those people who walked by. Only the four of us knows what happens. I'm not going to elaborate on that. So went home with my new friend (kakis, please shut up). And slack around my area, which is the park there. And we talk bout ourselves, told some ghost stories. Damn spooky man. And the anjings there are so pathetic. Ok, I admit that I'm scared of dogs. They keep on passing by and i just put my legs on top and try to keep calm. haha.

And I don't think we could come back together again. I just need some space for me to breathe in the fresh air. I'm sick of our problems, stress of guys. And i need a break. But no matter what, I still love you. Forever.


Had a bad stomachache yesterday night. I couldn't figure out what causes it to hurt so much. Right after I eat at night, when I woke up around 10pm, the pain starts. It really hurts that I went to the toilet and sat on the toilet bowl for quite long. And I vomitted. Everything I eat just went out. Maybe it's because I eat too much or I ate ice cream in the early morning, or simply because the mee goreng I ate in the morning da basi. Coz Sahrin says the mee smells like it's going to basi. Mum gave me 2 pills, 1 for berak cair and 1 for the pain. But before I could eat the medicine, I vomitted again. YUCKS! But now, ok already.

Didn't attend class today. It's normal for Hadzah this few months for not turning up for English lessons. haha. English lessons is sooooo boring that I'd rather sleep at home. You could just dream on for me to step into that Selvi's class. So meet up with honey in the afternoon after his school and he bought a screen protector which costs $10 for his precious PSP. And and we ate at Pizza Hut. And now, POKAI! No money ah babe! haha. Bum onto Farn and Ayid on the where to Tamp Mall. Took 22 to Serangoon to fetch my dear nephew, but at last my cousin call to say that her husband fetching him. So just buy ciggy and head back to Tamp. Surveyed some handphone shops and I was thinking of changing my phone to just a simple phone. As long as it has bluetooth and MP3 player. But maybe not this time. And and and, I saw MR PREM while walking to the interchange, and that Khalid after I saw that freaksic teacher of ours.

Nazz don't get jealous. haha.


Woohoo. I just got back home from the chalet of 3 days 2 nights at Costa Sands Downtown East. Didn't get any enough sleep for the 2 nights. Slept damn late, of course.

Friday, the first night, was hevoc. There was about 15 people, a bottle of Heaven Hill and a bottle of Absolut Vodka, and a few tins of beer. That night was the very first time i drink 'neat', Absolut. But at least I'm still ok. No 'high' at all. Steady ah babe. haha. Liz was gone right after she drink. She can't even pour the coke properly. And Ira, sewel. But, they drink the same amount as me. haha. And, Ira slept in the toilet, right infront of the toilet bowl. haha. Liz slept at the drain nearby. The guys asked me to bring the 2 girls up. Luckily there was Nurul to help me as I couldn't bring both up together. So stayed up till don't know time la, talk cock.

Went home in the afternoon for awhile to get some cash from mum. Went to Tampines to buy ciggies and back to the chalet. BBQ-ed and slack till 12+. And and and i drink beer. haha. Can't believe that I drink it. But it's ok coz Hadi mixed it with Redbull. Sedap babe! Should try, guys.

I'm cutting my hair by this week, with Zah. Woohoo.


It's been awhile since I update my blog. So here I am sitting infront of this slow and irritating laptop of mine. Told u, the wireless internet connection something wrong.

Serious, one of honey's friends, which I can't reveal his name (maybe if u guys know who, just shut up), really doesn't appreciate his current girlfriend. He asked *name* to take this bitchy girl while we were slacking at Mc the other day. If u guys were to see her, I bet that u guys too will say that she's a bitch who doesn't have any dignity, and any shame that she's a low-class slut. I might admit that she's pretty, but if she's trying to say that she's cheap by her attitude, what for have that pretty face. But I guess she's not that pretty, make-up mau lebih! haha. So guys, if u want to befriend a girl who is a stranger to u, get those who have maruah. Not cheap girls by the streets.

Tomorrow's gonna be a big day for everyone of us. I have to get the chickens at Bedok, honey have to take the stuffs from Sahrin's house, and bla bla bla. We are having chalet. So I won't be coming to school tomorrow. Sorry peeps.


just got home a moments ago from East Coast. tired to the max man! ok, we were late yesterday night. mizi's fault. =] he came late for jamming. and bla bla bla. had a great night and honey, as usual, damn noisy. haha. walked all the way to the pit 10 jetty around there. just imagine from pit 38, which is our pit, to pit 10. foooh. punye la 'dekat'. then din was telling some of his experience being a camp instructor and stuffs.

our pit area is like a rubbish chute in the morning around 6+am. the wind was so strong that it blew off all the plates. so we all kene la tolong, tolong tengok! haha. syafiq and his explosion thingy, semangat babe dengan muke2 skali. haha. and fishing ikan in the tent la. great la. but the thing is that, they say to honey not to bring his outside friends and stuffs. but got to know when we arrive, rohaida's mum, bro and his guy's bro tagged along. and after a few minutes we arrived, her guy's friend came along. WHAT THE FUCK!

k wateva.


Have been showering cold water the previous 2 days, as I slept at my aunt's place. Mum is being in the bad mood now adays and just throw her tempers onto anione else. So the dumbo. So no choice, back to my aunt's place. hehe. Yesterday met honey at Bedok interchange. I finished school at 3 and him, at 4. So i walked slowly to the Tamp interchange and took 28, as the journey is longer to Bedok. Sat at the phone booth and saw Syahirah, Kamalia, Aisyah and the guys of honey's secondary school friends. Honey arrived and we proceed on to Giant to buy stuffs for the pit at Eact Coast. Honey and Syafiq was like making a hell noise there. He is damn noisy if u guys dont know that.

Met honey after school today and accompanied him for his 2nd counselling at Tamp Polyclinic. Wrote a letter for his absentee for his previous camp and went to Admiralty to meet Rahmat at S11. The mee rebus there is so the thumbs-up and its cheap, onli $2. U guys should try and come over to my place and I'll bring u guys to that shop. Ok. I wrote rahmat a letter too for his absentee for today. haha.

Tomorrow gonna have pit and i'm gonna overnight there. weewit. Cant wait man! And i dunnoe whether i wanna go for chemistry tomorrow or not. haha. No! I have to. If not honey wont allow me to tag along to the pit.